finally

Once with my mother language, i used to lost the point, so i had chosen english this time, even though it might bring more troubles about the wrong spelling and grammatical errors. Whatwver i have no other chioce, and you won't expect me to write in français.

Its not easy to explain how awkward that was telling yourself that you did not just want to solve all these damn things on your own but you did afraid let people know you are just so fuxking weak. I hate myself trying not to face the turth almost a year. That's a inestimable loss. No mention of how ridiculous my behavior was. Speaking like a politically correct one without any sense of humor, smiling as i never get anger. I did even not to look askance at people theat i always did before. No satirizing, no snorting, no everthing. And also, since the last time we all got together laughing like a drain, i haven't laugh more than a grin (despite my terrible dentition) so far. The worst was that i had been used to live in this bloody hell way. Now i am doubt i will finish my study at high school with the okay grades in all subjects.

The foregoing is one of my points. In spite of the things i must write down to show all the friends worried about me and help myself clear up are much more, i think i will continue tomorrow.